Why Me?

So last week I struggled quite a bit with the question, "Why me?". I understand it is a fairly normal question to ask in my situation and I had been doing pretty good at the moving forward part. However as I still look back on it, the decision to let me go just doesn't make sense and it doesn't help to have people tell me that my boss isn't doing well or it wasn't his decision. Well then whose decision was it? Who is going to stand up and take the responsibility. Who ultimately is to blame? Aside from this I am really struggling with where is my friend. I thought we had a friendship outside of work and he hasn't even once asked how I was. So what does that mean. So I decided to have a talk with one of my former co-workers and a mutual friend. During our conversation I told him that I missed my friend but more than that I wanted to the truth about my lay off. I wasn't interest in hearing about how I wouldn't get the truth and that I needed to let it go. That was Tuesday!

So Saturday, during our Career in Transition seminar this was the topic of discussion. "Why do Bad things happen to me?" Ironic? I think so and also that God has a very funny sense of humor. I came away from the seminar more encouraged and was also able to hear the words that my co-worker was trying to tell me on Tuesday. It is normal to ask the question "Why" the bottom line is that you really won't get the answers you seek. Instead it just leads to more questions, which in turn will cause one to build self-doubt and further damage their self-esteem. Interesting, very interesting....

Will I ever have that friendship again? Maybe and maybe not. Right now I just need to move forward and go down the path that God has laid for me. Some days will be easy and some days will be hard. Some days I will good job leads or interviews and others days I won't. In the end I will eventually end up where God wants me and I just need to be patient during the process.