Thursday, October 8, 2009

Loving Life

I wish I could honestly say that I was loving life. However since I am currently struggling with that concept it is now going to be my new mantra for the next little while. I haven't been enjoying anything that life is throwing at me since the end of August. The dreaded day was another "Black Thursday" for me. In this case I was laid off from what I thought was my dream job after 11 years. This is a first for me. Each time I have left a job it has been on my own terms and usually I had another job lined up immediately after my last day. It's weird too because in some ways I knew it might be coming but honestly really never thought it would be me. I have experienced all sorts of emotions in the last seven weeks as I have been grieving for my old job. Working at PPP was like my second family and it is strange to now be in this identity crisis of "who am I?". Getting laid off or fired when you are a bad employee is one thing but when you are a great employee who has received nice reviews, gifts and has brought in $ 2 million contracts is another thing all together. In a nutshell it is the biggest blow to one's ego. Now I have to sit down and re-examine my life, re-assess my skills and decide what is it that I really one to do? Thus the new mantra! Loving Life.....

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